How are you 2 months already!?
Yeah ok so i know im a bit late to the party with this one since technically he turned 2 months on the 1st but hey better late than never right!?
I cant believe you have been with us for 2 months now! And what a whirlwind of a 2 months its been! its been a hard bumpy road but now…i think we have got it! In all fairness hes been a good baby, despite his rocky start! I found it a little hard adjusting too…i was scared to go out cause what if you needed fed when we were out and you were screaming and people stared and criticised! But, with Johns help and encouragement we managed a few trips out in the early days and it wasn’t as bad as i was thinking it would be..if anything it was enjoyable and pretty easy!
The early days was challenging, i was breast feeding and it was hard and it only continued to get harder with him having jaundice, then basically refusing to take the boob! i remember John coming home from work one day when he was about 4 weeks old, id been on the couch for 5 hours, hadn’t moved cause he wanted fed constantly..he was crying, i was crying and i just didnt know what to do, i think that was the first time i literally had to hand him over to John and walk away! I went outside stood on the doorstep and cried! I physically couldn’t feed him any more! So i made him up a bottle and oh my goodness what a difference! he slept better, he was more alert and awake…all in all he was a more content baby, he was like a different baby TBH!
But i couldn’t help but feel like i was a failure, all you see and hear these days is ‘breast is best’ and boy do they push it! So after countless breastfeeding groups and chats online and phone calls ect and every single person pushing to carry on with it even though he was crying and unsettled i honestly felt like the worst most judged mother in the world when i gave him a bottle especially when i was out and about, you cant help but feel the older generation looking at you with sheer disgust as your baby feeds on a bottle rather than you! I cried for a few days…i did feel bad but then when i seen him so happy and content i knew what we had done was right!
Ive loved every single week of having him here with us and seeing John with him just makes me want to burst! Seeing the 2 of them have some play time together on the nemo matt or reading him stories or just cuddling him in for a nap, it just makes me feel so happy.
Grayson is almost 10 weeks now! SCARY! Its true what they say they arent little for long! I’ve just bundled a whole load of his tiny baby and new born stuff in to a bag and taken it to the local kids in need shop but i still have a massive box full of stuff that we are keeping, you know as a just incase we have another! seeing how big he has gotten and how alert he are is amazing, he is so nosy! Im pretty sure he has FOMO!! I tell him stories, sing made up rubbish songs and stuff and its all just to see him confused facial expressions and his laugh! Makes all the craziness worth it when i see him happy!
Christmas has been and gone, and what a Christmas it was! Our first as a family of 3 and as mummy and daddy! i know he was super young and really didn’t understand much…actually probably nothing at all but still i loved it! I loved talking about Santa and how he was coming and he needed to go to bed or he wouldn’t come and stuff!! I cant wait for this years because he will be able to open presents and play with toys ect so it will be a little more fun for us all i think!
Grayson is sleeping all the way through the night! Which is a total dream!! Hes going down between 7pm-8pm and then we dream feed him before we go to bed, usually between 10pm-12pm. And he sleeps all the way through till 7am maybe 8am? Its amazing what a full night sleep does! I feels o much better! Broken sleep was a nightmare! Day time naps need a little work! i literally cannot get anything done during the day! We get up when he wakes, down for a bottle and play time and then he usually needs a nap after that, sleeps for 10 mins and BOOM is awake again! repeat this 4x over the day, so come 6pm he is one grumpy overtired lad!! So any advice on day time naps are welcome!!
I cannot even explain what i did with my life before you, and come Friday things are about to get even more interesting!
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Heres to another month!