Ok so i now have an 6 week old so im now less freaked out since i suppose he isnt technically a newborn.
Considering i have held countless babies, helped with nappy changes, baths and feeds, i’m not completely inexperienced at the whole newborn thing. But i also got to hand them back when they started to cry and get fussy cause i didnt know what to do…. Now I’ll be doing it without being able to do that. Here are just a few of the things that terrify me about the newborn stage.
They seem so fragile!
My son was about a month old before I felt like I was a baby-holding pro. The early days, when they’re so fresh and tiny, makes me hyper-aware of a newborn’s fragility. It’s silly, but am constantly terrified of somehow breaking him when ive seen how rough and stuff people can be with newborns….! I know know they are tougher than they look…but it still freaks me out!
Just this whole thing in general…whapping the boobs out in public..would i be scowled at, would people stare, would they be disgusted? would my milk come in? i only have small boobs will my boobs be big enough to satisfy him? How will i know how much he is drinking? Will he drink enough?
Oh my god the stress!! This totally freaked me out before Grayson arrived, but once he was put on my chest he just got on with it like a total little pro and i knew when he had enough…as to the people who stared and looked horrified at me feeding…DONT LIKE IT DONT LOOK!
Is the baby breathing?
Few things look as peaceful as a sleeping baby. But while they sleep, a lot of parents (like me) feel the need to check on them every 30 seconds. Don’t get me wrong, I want him to sleep soundly and I hope that he has the best dreams a baby could ask for. I’d also be fine with a few random signs of life to reassure me that everything is okay, so that I can try to rest too…cause lets face it we all wake up during the night place our hand on their little belly’s just to make sure they are ok!! 6 weeks in and im still guilty of it!!
Why are you crying…!? What cry is this?
I never knew babies had different cries for different things…?! i literally thought they just cried and you had to do a process of elimination to figure out what the cry was!
Imagine the scene of the first few weeks… “Are you hungry?” I ask. “Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh,” he responds. “How about an extra blanket?” “Waah waah wah,” I hear.
I basically just lie there on the floor talking to this crying baby….literally no idea WTF is wrong, exhausted and overwhelmed trying to figure out if this is the ‘ive shit myself’ cry or the ‘feed me’ cry!
Don’t worry. By month three, I’ll be a pro. (I hope.)
I won’t say I enjoyed breastfeeding, but I did enjoy how easy it was to do once you got started. No bottles, no prep..literally just get them out and boom happy baby!
Grayson was literally spending most of his time wrapped onto my chest. I wont lie it was hard when at one point i felt like i was a milked cow!
Nonetheless, the early days of breastfeeding involved a huge learning curve and several growth spurts. AKA – cluster feeding — which is the absolute worst. I know baby needs the food and mommas milk supply will need the help. But why can’t I just use an “easy button” so I feel less like a milk machine and more like a person?
Sleep….Whats that again?
I was pretty nervous about how hard it will be to juggle the erratic newborn sleep schedule along with the housework and taking care of myself when my partner returns to work. And by “nervous,” I mean downright terrified…how do i shower during the day when he isnt here to look after the baby? I now basically run on coffee and dry shampoo…