Thursday 1st November 2018
Weighing 8lb 3oz
After a rocky year back in 2017…i prayed we would have you! I longed to have a baby, a little person to call my own and call me mummy! We never planned you, but i believe that you came to us at the right time! Why we needed you…we will never know!
We found out we were expecting you on the 5th March 2018. I had a feeling for a few weeks..i think sometimes you just know! I went to Tesco and told you dad i was going for milk..?! LOL! I didnt want to say anything to him and it be a false positive so i kept it to myself until i knew for sure you were really in there!
It was really bad snow that March! We actually ended up being snowed in for 3 days! It was my birthday weekend and we couldn’t even get out the house, when we did go out it was to shovel the paths and dig cars out…not my idea of a fun filled birthday weekend! We did manage to go sledging…which was a good laugh!
Once i took the test i sat there in shock unable to speak or think. I was physically shaking! There it was…that tiny littl + on the stick! It was so strong too so i knew you were in there holding on tight growing bigger and stronger each day! I sat on the couch wondering what to say to your dad…how on earth do i tell him without handing him a stick with warm pee on it? Cause lets face it that isnt very romantic now is it?
I actually cant remember how i told your dad cause my head was all over the place and i was in shock! I just remember us being so happy, but we both had our guard up and were both super anxious incase anything happened to you!
Now i wont lie..i didn’t enjoy being pregnant about 80% of the time! But when i was enjoying it, it was magical! I loved bonding with you and so did your dad. I used to play you Ed Sheeran (i still do), it didn’t matter what song went on when i put it on you would wriggle kick and squirm. Every night from about 12 weeks till the day you were born your dad would sit in bed just before we went to sleep and and speak to you, now it wasn’t anything too exciting it was just about what happened that day at work or what we did that day, i honestly dont think he missed a single day! Even when he was working away in London he would video chat us and tell me to put the speaker to my belly so he could chat to you. When you heard his voice you used to wriggle and kick away like mad!
Those 9 months of carrying you were the hardest but most rewarding 9 months ever! You also taught me a thing or two and showed us who really cares and wants to be in our lives! You taught me alot about me too…things i never knew! You helped me see who was important in life, who i needed to be there for me and who i didnt.
30th October 2018 – the day you were a total monkey!! I had been in and out of hospital with you anyway from about 23 weeks because you liked to have your quiet days when really you were a total wiggle monster! So when i had tried every single trick in the book to get you moving and you didnt, we ended up back in the hospital to get you checked over. Boy did i get a shock when the midwife said to me that she was booking me in for induction! Because of the amount of times we were in and out hospital because you loved a lazy day they said they would rather just get you out. So i took it with a pinch of salt and called your dad who was at work (30 odd miles away)!! I told him that we were going to be getting induced and that he needed to come home asap. Well the midwife came back and said she was going to give me a sweep to start me off, how shocked was i when she told me i was already in active labour and 3cm dilated! Cue the panic phone call to your dad telling him to get here NOW!!!But because there was no room for us at the moment we were sent home and told to come back tomorrow.
Back to the hospital we go on the 31st October. Our last trip together as a two. Soon to become a three! The labour wasnt easy…i dont remember much, your poor dad on the other hand…im pretty sure he has been traumatised for the foreseeable future. I was pushing for a whole 2 hours solid to try and get you here but you were having none of it! So after an almost 12 hour labour i was taken away to theatre for you to be pulled out via forceps. And at 0946am on Thursday 1st November you were placed in my arms!
I remember kissing your little head and nose and holding your tiny hand which gripped my finger so tightly. Me and your dad were so happy you arrived safely in this world. I know we both already loved you from the second we seen that blue cross on the test, but i think we both truly fell in love with you the second we layed eyes on you.
I truly believe that the day you were born, i was born too.
Your first breath took ours away.
Mummy & Daddy x