Well needless to say at both stages in this little mans life he has kept us well on our toes!!
When we found out we were expecting it was amazing we were so excited about all the things to come! Everyone expects and thinks they will have a nice straight forward and easy, happy pregnancy…i did too! But this little peanut had other ideas!!
At just over 6 weeks pregnant i was experiencing some pain on my right side, being cautious i called the Early Pregnancy Unit and explained the pain i was getting to them. They told me to come right in to hospital as they though i was maybe having an eptopic pregnancy! Well needless to say i shit it! I went right in to hospital to get checked over and i was given a scan.. not expecting to see much or anything at all i wasn’t holding my breath for much, i literally lay on the bed with my eyes closed and my heart in my throat…expecting the worst!
‘And there is your little baby, see its little heart flickering away there’ Hearing those words come out the woman’s mouth i have never felt so much relief in my life!! There it was…a little peanut shaped baby with a real beating tiny heart. Everything was fine and we were both so relieved it was nothing too serious and both me and our little peanut were ok!
So here we are now…Grayson has been in our lives for 6 short weeks but it feels like a lifetime! In these 6 weeks he has been just as much trouble on the outside as he was on the inside!!
Because he was born via forceps delivery when he came out he looked like he had done 10 rounds with AJ!! His poor beautiful little face was all bruised and swollen! Because of all the swelling and bruising he had some jaundice, we were kept in the hospital over night just to make sure he was all OK and feeding correctly ect. When the midwife came round the next morning to do her checks he had his jaundice levels checked, he was just below treatment level. So we were allowed to go home that afternoon but we would have to have his levels checked again the next day just to see that they were going down. On the Saturday the midwife came out checked him all over again and also re-checked his jaundice. It was good news they had went down! So he was way below treatment level now, they repeated the test again on the Sunday too.
On the Monday we had yet another midwife visit, now just by looking at Grayson you could tell he had jaundice…i mean he was bright orange!! If his levels were going down surely he shouldn’t be so bright orange? But anyway the midwife looked him over again basically said ‘he looks fine his levels are going down he doesn’t look too bad’ and off she went! Now i’m not kidding when i say he was tangoed because he was! So we put our faith and trust in this woman and carried on with our new lives!
We had to go back in to hospital when Grayson was 6 days old because he had been referred in 1 ear for his hearing because he was so badly bruised on that side. So we went to get that checked and with having a ‘mothers instinct’ and sheer curiosity i asked while we were in getting his hearing checked if they would mind checking his jaundice levels again for us because he didn’t really look any better….they agreed to check him even though they shouldn’t of as we ‘technically’ weren’t patients…well his levels had almost doubled!! he was waaaaaaay over treatment level and we were admitted right away for treatment.
We spent about 2 days in the special care baby unit under the photo-therapy lights (blue lights) to help him try get rid of his orangeness! He was doing so so well and after about 12 hours under 2 lights they were able to remove 1 and kept him under 1 light for another 12 hours. He was under constant observation and was getting blood tests done every 6 hours. This was heartbreaking to see and hear your baby in pain from getting needles stuck in his hands and feet. Its even worse when he is like me and doesn’t like to give up blood!! But the special care unit were fab they didn’t tell us when they were doing the bloods at all they just came and got us when he needed fed. This was great for me cause it made me less stressed out and also more relaxed, they were so gentle and kind with him i didn’t mind leaving them too it! After he had been under 1 light for 12 hours his levels were low enough that he could be taken off the lights all together but had to stay in the incubator with nothing to see if he would bring his levels down on his own. They told us to expect a spike and that was normal but this wee man pushed the levels way down! So we were allowed to get home! Finally we thought he had it all under control!!
However when he was 4 weeks old he was still looking a tad on the tanned side…so the Health Visitor referred us back to the hospital again to get him checked out to just check he hadn’t gone back up again. So back in we all go, back to our 2nd home! So here we are again..sat in a room waiting on the paediatrician coming in to do yet more blood test! More screaming, more upset and nothing i could do to take the pain away from my little man. After he had his bloods taken in a screaming match we were sent back home and told they would call in about an hour with the results. It wasn’t good news, his levels had yet again spiked and he was 19 points off treatment level! we were to go back on Friday for another blood test and to re-evaluate the situation!
Friday….Again like before i was thinking the worst! i had a gut feeling we would be re-admited back to the special care unit for more blood tests and treatment, but this time we wouldn’t be able to stay because i was no longer breastfeeding, i was devastated at the thought of leaving my time 4 almost 5 week old on his own without me! Back in the room….waiting on the paediatrician….this time no screaming match which was good! She told us to wait in the room and she would be back in about 40 minutes with the results…so my thoughts were she was admitting us and she knew it but wanted to confirm it! over an hour and a half later she comes back in, his levels had dropped massively (cue massive sigh of relief) his liver function was fine and there was no underlying issues, we were allowed to go home!
Now here he is 6 weeks on and looking pale and Scottish, his jaundice is all under control now, you can see he still has a tiny amount left cause the side of his eyes are still a little discoloured but his levels are way way down and hes getting rid of it himself!! Grayson has had a rocky wee start in his so far short life but hes been a little fighter! I wouldn’t change our topsy turvy stressful journey for anything!!